Friday, October 29, 2010


Have you ever wondered what everyone really thought about you? 

wondered if everything they said was truthful or wondered if every smile or laugh they gave you was real? 
I have... i do. 
I wonder if those little statuses on blogs and facebook are about me. 
I wonder if they laugh at me or say bad things about me behind my back like other kids they talk about. 
I wonder if i'm annoying them or saying the wrong things, doing the wrong things, being the wrong things...
People always say that "It doesn't matter what they think, it only matters what you think" but is that really how it is?
sometimes you can't help but feel that way, when you feel like you can't trust anybody...

On the flip side...

when you think about those things, it reminds you about the things you might have done to other people.
I always try to accept people for who they are. 
I don't have a problem with differences
 but when people are bothering you,
when they're characters are just not agreeable to you, what do you do?

There is someone close to me, who i love very much as a person but i can't handle as a companion. let's say it's a girl. People are always talking about her and sometimes i find even find myself starting to say things about her, or i find myself trying to distance myself from her and joining into jokes about her, and then i realize what i've done and it kills me.

SO im in this club and it's called WALK IN LOVE and i really loved the name because God is LOVE and to walk in love is to walk in HIM. but when you really think about it, are you always walking in love?

so... here's to a new me. i'll do everything in my power to accept everybody for WHO THEY ARE NO MATTER WHAT THEY DO or HOW THEY DO IT. i will NOT join in jeers or jokes or sneers about ANYBODY. I will LOVE. i will ALWAYS WALK IN LOVE.

Monday, October 25, 2010

it never rains when you want it to...

good/ bad day... long story short. 
good= caffeine high
bad= crassshh

oh and youtube wont let me upload videos unless i wait 6 hours so... the whole review thing is gonna take a while =__=

attempting verbal silence tomorrow ^^ not sure how its gonna work out but it shouldn't be that hard. talking isn't a necessity for me anyways.

*please excuse the incomplete/short thoughts i didn't fell complete today ;P

i just made a sad decision, i'm not going to homecoming, i'm not sure how i really feel about it yet... but my heart is hurting and racing at the same time?

everything is so bipolar today...

songs of the day~  Drops of Jupiter- Train
                                 Humble Me- Norah Jones ( title )

Sunday, October 10, 2010

bowling balls, pool balls, and... Mcflurries??

oh my goodness, FUNNEST DAY. I went bowling with my church buddies + some chinese exchange students (they're ALL guys! i was like wth??) which i can proudly say are pretty much my buddies now too ^-^. i brought my camera with me but umm... i forgot to take pictures??? =___= yes yes i know FAIL on my part but i'll get pictures of the exchange students later haha i know that's what your waiting for ;P. but anyways...  

We stopped at Mickey D's on the way and, i...don't eat Mcdonalds? so i had bread and an apple hehe and a Mcflurry. Ice cream and fries are the only two things i will eat at MD.
Speaking of which, we then won 2 free med. fries with the whole monopoly game thingy ahaha and free fries always taste better RIGHT??

I'm not gonna lie, i suck at bowling. I can (and unfortunately have) gotten my bowling ball in the gutter... WITH BUMPERS!!!! uhmm so i guess you could say today was a good day for me? i got at 2 strikes and 3 spares....miracle 1.

and then i "played pool".... heh.. right.
We had 1 of the exchange students playing with us so we had 2 guys and 2 girls, and of course both the guys are amazing pool players and we....are not.
so we split up and my was getting OWNED >< but the CE (chinese exchange) guy shot the 8 ball in (on purpose?) and we won kekeke. miracle 2.

ahaaahhh so much to write so little time, updates tomorrow? 

seriously, i have vid reviews coming up ( circle lens, BB cream)

Friday, October 8, 2010

nooby FIRST post!! ^________^

OK I'm not going to waste time trying to introduce myself cuz you'll never get the full effect without i just honestly don't feel like doing in right now XD. JUST READ THE ABOUT ME BOX!! DON'T BE LAZY! only pandas are allowed to be lazy. Why? because they're cute ^__^

The main purpose of this blog is basically just to share a bit of my life and maybe give you someone to relate to...maybe possibly...
I'm actually really interested in fashion/ beauty and that sort of thing but i seriously don't wear that much make up everyday. It's pretty much just chapstick and mascara (concealer if needed ><) . Aaaannnd im not particularly fashionable, i mean it's not like i can't dress right but most of what i get are hand-me-downs, HOWEVER these HMDs are from some seriously fashionable people ;P. i got a pair of Versace pants once o__o ...i know. 

But even with these complications i can't help being interested i LOVE love love frmheadtotoe and mszjackiechu they're pretty much... *lost for words* check them out! and fashion wise yesstyle wins my love... i've only bought one shirt from them tho because of my asian thriftiness ><  see it here. and it was on like the last day of this major sale so i bought it! 

So BOTTOM LINE this blog is going to show how i evolve through time in terms of fashion and cosmetics. I'll TRY to do reviews and tutorials and when i say "try" i mean do everything i possibly can cuz stuff is pricey and i have no munnies =[


So, i've just started the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan, and it's basically talking about our relationship with God and how each and everyday it should be like falling in love with our Creator. Such a good book so far...
 speaking of our Creator....oh my goodness today is SUCH a beautiful day. i'm not even kidding, it's not too warm and not to cold, the sky is blue, the sun is pretty much the perfect light/ color, and it's that early autumn time where the trees are still green and full of life but you can see just a tinge of color at the tops.... beautiful. God is so awesome words can't express... *sits in awe*

*yawn* im sleepy i wanna take a nap. nighty night guys ^-^

youtube channel is up (but no videos; did i mention i do song covers?? oh. well i do ^^) circle lens review coming soon!

<3 puhi~