台湾 yep, taiwan (day 1)

sooo i guess i should probably tell you about my trip huh? hehe just kidding i know you don't care that much i'm just a proud parent (ahem....not a parent) who wants to show you the pictures of my baby (no baby!...unless you count domo) ;P


so im gonna do the posts by days cuz i want to get it all organized hehe so here's...

Day 1 ...getting there + a little (get ready to scroll people!!)


The blizzard was just starting we were about halfway to the airport.

our massive amount of stuff...

United Airlines to Chigaco  7:35 on time yeshh

ahaha my momm packed us a carry on i was like "really?" *opens* FULL OF FOOD ;P

....... people with balance problems..... please use elevators. hm

even the airlines... this is ssad

goodbye lanc pa, cant say ill miss you much... the people in it however...

our plane in Chicago, i looked out the window and saw this guy out there i was like "that looks safe"

my parents.. mom was taking a nap

 domo and i in chicago i tried to sleep but it didnt work.

then from chicago we took a 14 hr flight to narita japan where my camera died on landing ..... 
and then we got to taiwan and went to my uncles house where they had these tiny oranges which you just pop into your mouth peels and all.... they were yummy ;9 this little pile was pretty much gone in the morning hehe ^^

ok one thing you need to know about taiwan before you go there the  showers are either with a tub, and with the bottom of the tub about a foot off the ground; or with no tub at all and just with a drain under it. but the great thing is... the hot water never runs out ;P

ommmm 好久不見!!!

wwooOOOwww its been SO long since i've posted ;P 

well Taiwan was............* lack of words to describe* <3 <3 *sigh*  thinking about it kind of makes me wish i wasn't in america....except i'd miss my friends >< arrrgghh

which leads me to the next subject... there is virtually NOTHING to do with friends here esp if you dont have wheels..... you can eat food..... and thats pretty much it.... hu~ sososso we have this field trip to DC during the cherry blossom festival and i SOOSOSOSOS wanted to go............ stupid parents..... i actually wanted to GO SOMEWHERE with my friends, actually DOING something ..........DARRRGGHHH!!! *angrysadfrustratedstressfilled tears* TTnTT

i made new stuff (jewelry) well...one- new stuff.... so idk look forward to that..or dont look forward to it cuz there might not be a post cuz my camera's dead....... beeehh

so... to end this sucky post i have to state that i have massive CMC and taiwan withdrawal ...living in the past.. not a good thing but o well

oh by the way i forgot to mention im- ..we are- ..my school breakdance team is dancing in  the school pep rally...... disaster waiting to happen ....wish us luck >~<

beginning of a journeyy....

here we goooo come with meeeee there's a world but there that we should see.... 9  more hours >~< i miss my friends (*family*) already

so so so... YAAAY im going to Taiwan.... NOOO i miss my friends who are pretty much my family TT^TT omg soo excited/nervous/sad/ CONFUSSEEEDD 

bleh w/e i think ill try to do some uptdates about how everything goes i guess blerr gtg pack i guess i'll see you guys!!

i should really start packing.... >~<;;;;

mm song?

ermm so yeah i guess i did some song writing ;\ and basically the whole reason i'm posting this is because it needs a title heh heh so.... er yeah any ideas?

I’ve always been the one

Who’s left behind

With the box full of memories

And ever since we met

It’s been on my mind

Then I think to myself

“Ha! oh please…”

But you know….

*It would be nice to have someone to run to

Somebody who loves me as much as I love them

For who I am

And it’s be nice to have a man

Who’d actually says as he takes my hand

“I’ll never be the one to let you go

And even if I’m gone you’ll always know

You’re the only one I love  and I ain’t leaving until you tell me to go”*

I’ve always been the one

To say goodbye

Got good with keeping it out of my eyes

But every time I start

to fall (in love) again

I just think to myself

“yeah right…”

*chorus*

Bridge

And I said “np, don’t get you hopes up

These things don’t ever last

It’ll all go by way too fast

Stop! Don’t fall for the word ‘love’

You’ll just regret you gave your heart

Cuz they gave it back broken all over again

*Chorus*

But I’ve always been the one who’s left behind

Always the one to say goodbye

wow....T-.....uhmmm nevermind...yess?

mk sooooo aha i started that title a few days ago and it was going to something like "wow,,,, total transformation" or something like that... and i was/am.. but then again...and then it clicked? ahah it was like i had a transformation and then when the transformation was complete and i left that utopian environment it was like i was in withdrawal haha and i kind of tried to push it away from my mind because i missed it too much and my life went on not much different from before. but after a while when i looked back to it in nostalgia rather than in craving, i really felt filled. like i'd been newly replenished with good spirits hehe. and it felt GOOD!!!

i feel like i have more strength and determination to reach my goals that i did before. i feel more like ME strangely enough, since all these feelings come from me wanting to give my life completely to God! i say "want" because i can never be sure that i'm giving everything to Him even though i want to, my human nature is to want to keep everything for myself. but that's ok im working on it ;P

i mean its not like my life is perfect now, my grades still aren't the best, i still have midterms coming up, and school is still stupid but  somehow everything is....better?
life isn't perfect and i don't think life CAN be perfect but it's only as good as you let it be.

i'm just going to say  that in life there ARE downs and you can't keep them from coming but there are things that can make them bearable, as well as nourishing. one of those things is friends. They're always there for you, even if they're not always physically THERE, just knowing that they would be if they could is enough sometimes. and there's always someone who IS there all the time, but it really depends on you to whether or not you want Him to help ;P Don't you have those times where you dont need to talk you just need someone there to sit next to you while you cry? yeah. God is like that.... and you know what? sometimes he even gives you a pat on the shoulder.